The Needless Sacrifice

You almost convinced me
I almost believed it
But faithlessly I reject it
I will suffer for my crimes

I came to the edge of water
To pretend to pass my sorrow
But this is my chance to amplify
I will suffer for my crimes

Tell me it's alright
Tell me time heals it
Tell me your lies
I'll bury my knife in my own side

And I will pay for this
Don't you dare, the burden is mine
I will pay for you too
The eternal sacrifice

I will pay for all of it
The needless sacrifice
I'll bleed for all our sins
I'll break for all the crimes
The burden is mine
The eternal blasphemy
Of the blood of Christ

The burden is mine
I'll pay for my crimes!

These debts aren't forgiven
I must still do my time
The sentence is a lifetime
Forgive me when I die

The burden is a lifetime
Forgive me while you watch me die

I wrote this song while listening to “Vicarious” by Tool. It is about, and for, all who blame themselves for things that have already been forgiven, and perhaps even forgotten. What may become the key phrase in the song is: “The eternal blasphemy of the blood of Christ”. While it's primarily a symbol of forgiveness that is not accepted, it is also aimed at Christians, who's belief should do nothing but allow them to forgive themselves. Specifically, that section is there for my dad, who is a steadfast Christian and deals with more self-hate than any non-suicidal person I know.