Some Depressing Lines

I guess I better take this
I guess I better never let this go
But I’m crying, I’m dieing
I’ve had enough, I’m dead
I’m not alive
I’ve had enough of this, I’m gone
Somewhere long the line
I died

Could I go back to that place? no
No, I don’t remember
Where that place was where I finally dropped the line
Could I retrace my steps and
Find where I was going
But no, no, no time is long, and I’m gone and this isn’t life

So at this lonely hour of the night I cry
And I don’t want to sleep
I want to work it out, to never doubt
Why I’m alive
But I fear, fear, fear all these thought that I’m having

And I rise
To the most beautiful sunrise
I hide my eyes, heave a sigh
And get back to this so called life
And I’m scared
That this will never get better
That I’ll always see the world through grey tinted eyes

And oh, oh, oh… I realize, this isn’t life

This just didn't work itself out to a song, but I thought you guys should know about it. Maybe I'll hash a song out of it someday. It was inspired by Sarah Jaffe's song "Swelling".  http://www.myspace.com/sjaffe