Can I Be Comfortable With Me?

That is the question on my mind now. It's very interesting typing out these blog entries or songs. There will (usually) be something that will be eating at me for weeks, and maybe months but I won't be able to grab hold of it and say "This is it", until a day suddenly comes along where it becomes stunningly clear to me. Why this happens seems to have no explanation. I can be trying to figure something out for weeks, going in circles, and then suddenly, just listening to some music or reading someone's blog it comes to be "This is what's been bugging me" This was one of those things.

With Christians, there are a lot of taboos. Some things you just don't do; it's that simple. No one wrote rules about this, but the concequences of breaking these rules is as real as a speeding ticket. Everyone knows this, so I guess that statement is a little redundant, but it's got to be there for me to make sense later.

I've been seeing things through a new perspective since around the time I typed out "Great Thought of Yesterday" and that has started to have an effect on how I see the taboos I mentioned earlier. Since I see the Law (and now the commands of Christ) as something God put there just so we could live in the best way possible, I think that none of these taboos are wrong because they are a specific action. Maybe they are wrong for some people in some situations because of the motivation for doing them, but it's not the same for everyone.

I also want to make it clear, this is not about some stupid things like wearing nice clothes to church or anything; this is about some things that really seem to scare the crap out of many "good" Christians. I'm talking about things that would probably worry my parents. I'm talking about loving Eminem for being a great rapper, about saying "shit" cause it fits the situation like "shoot" just doesn't, about listening to intense, depressing music because it describes reality.

So I have two big questions:
1: Is this something most of us think but are scared to say?
2: Can I be comfortable with breaking these taboos?

I don't believe the taboos are right, but I'm not sure what's harder: Being thought of as a sinner and a bad person by people I love or following someone else's rules.

Well, I hope that all made sense to you; it did to me. Maybe I'll read it tommorow and find out what I was trying to say, but for now.
Good Morning!

Oh! Thanks to the Blackstones guy for getting me in the mood for blogging. http://www.theblackstones.net/Artist%20Journal/7E7A608A-1182-447F-9F95-12F8320A7F0E.html