I Don't Believe You

Again I find myself awake
Many hours past when I should sleep
Again my lack of answers appalls me
Again I wish I was somewhere but here

And yes I know
Just live another day
Endure a little more pain
Give a little more love 

I feel like a ship taking water
Always surviving, never quite how I should be
Always bailing water
I don’t quite sink 

I know hope is supposed to carry me
But faith for me is disbelief
And love is something I have to fight for
And I’m, SO tired of fighting

And yes I know
Just live another day
Endure a little more pain
Give a little more love
And I know
This may be just a phase
It’ll be gone someday
But I don’t believe it

Yeah, I don’t believe you
I’ll hurt you and be true
I don’t believe you
I don’t believe you

Even though this seems like an end-of-faith song, it really is not. What it is is a painful acceptance that faith and everything that goes along with it will be hard.