A Conversation With God

I’m not good enough, I’m deep in sin, they all say
They’re fools, I choose you that way
I haven’t changed, still addiction crazed
Did you think I didn’t see that when I first came your way?
I’m one to condemn, and righteously so
I love you more than you’ll ever know
Can I hear You say “I still love you this way”?
Yes, always, I love you that way
Sweet Jesus now I know, You never, ever let me go
Dear child, you know, I never, EVER let you go

My Own War

A distant battle to them
Like thunder in the breeze
I wish they could see
This is real to me

Alive

You've never felt so bad before
But you have no idea why
You've got everything, still you're doubting
You feel guilty for wasted time

You cry out begging for forgiveness
And secretly wonder if He's there
Apathy takes over
Existence continues

Is there anything here?
But politics and lies
I don't want another sermon
I want to feel alive

You wake up half past seven
Hit the snooze a second time
Hope to God the day goes quickly
So you can rest another night

You're fearful of your every heartbeat
And wonder what happens when you die
Sleep can't take over
You cry through the night

Is there anything to this?
Is our "faith" a lie
I can't bear another lesson
I just need to feel alive

He proved the failure with a leap
A leap, a cut, a drug
They said he was a sinner
One of "them", he never knew
You may pity this man
But can you say he isn't you?

Rebellion

I can’t trust you to define me
To tell me what it is to succeed
Because last time I did that
It was almost the end of me

I know you don’t understand me
I suppose it’s the way it has to be
My actions will not please you
I’m not who you wanted me to be

And I’ll pray to God we understand
That I can’t live to please you

Another failure in your eyes
Leaves a shiver down my spine
Because last time I felt that
I almost took my life

I’ve changed the way I look at life
You’re such a smaller part
I’m sorry you’ll never read this
To understand my heart

And I’ll pray to God we understand
That I can’t live to please you

I pray to God to give me strength
To never live to please you